Desperately Desperate

I’ve never been more desperate then now. I've seen so much in so few years. The more time progresses, the more my desperation increases. I seek to do more and more and more to make things happen, but I’m not satisfied. I’ve never been more desperate to introduce people to Jesus.

You and I can debate God's existence until we are blue in the face, but no one can tell me that the healings, miracles, and breath-taking events that I’ve witnessed personally aren’t real. I’m not talking about miracles like God’s creation, breath in my lungs, or anything like that (even though I do agree that those are miracles). I’m talking about unusual, strange, and unexplainable events.

For example, a few months ago I was at work helping a client and felt compelled to give my undivided attention to her. As I listened, she was telling me about some health problems and other life situations that were going on, and as she was mentioning some things from her past, I could feel God speaking to me. I don’t know how else to explain this other than this way. I saw the word David in my mind. I honestly didn’t know what to say or do. I wasn’t even sure that it was from God. So, I prayed, “God, was that from you?” I felt my heart start beating rapidly like I just drank 3 Red Bulls. Every time I feel this feeling, something interesting happens. I decided to give the name a shot. I said, “Does the name David mean anything to you?” Expecting a funny look, I glanced at her and she gave me a deer in the headlights look. Then, she said, “That is my ex-husband’s name. There’s no way you could have known that. His name isn’t on any of my information. There’s no way you could have known that. How did you know his name?” Then, she started crying hysterically and expressing to me how he abused her, treated her terribly, and how it has affected her life. I felt God nudge me to tell her how he was ready to heal her emotionally so she didn’t have to keep living in the way she was. She said that must have come from God, because there was absolutely no way that I could have known that. She left with an extreme peace.

I have more stories like this (some involving people getting healed physically). How can this be debated? Or explained?

The relevance of Scripture to everyday life amazes me. Check this out, there was a man that was born blind and Jesus healed him. Afterwards, people didn’t believe that the former blind man had been healed, even though he could see! They questioned the man and still did not have faith. So they said, “We know that this man is a sinner.” The blind man who had been healed said, "Whether he is a sinner or not, I don't know. One thing I do know. I was blind but now I see!” (John 9:25)

It breaks my heart that no matter how many miracles Jesus performs people still refuse to believe him. Reality is, I’m going to look pretty foolish on this earth. But, when we all die I’m definitely not going to look foolish. I’m going to say, “I’m with Jesus!” This is why I’m desperate. I want others to experience this with me and not the alternative.